Dear blog,
There are so many things bottling up in myself lately. I was just browsing through my previous entry, and it's been a long time since I last write in here.
That bad feeling, hateful and want-to-quit feeling is back. I just want to scream, but having problem finding a place to do that. I can drive to Sepang, somewhere near the LCCT; there is a pond or lake that you can sit down and watch planes flying.
It's year end, I guess, and the feeling of having to grow up spiritually and mentally is getting heavy on my heart. I don't trust anyone in office anymore. I don't believe the people in my office will understand and seeing the pretentious face sitting there is already enough to make me mad and want to puke.
At this moment, I just felt like sleeping and never get up. My body pain is back, triggered by the exercise led by a self-taught guru. Shouldn't have followed along, stupid me. Being a sportperson for years, I should have just say 'that's insane, doing all the twist and turn without proper understanding of human body'.
Sigh.. fight on or find way out?
